moving...

fuckin a. finally i can move out of this s**thole. bye Euston, hey Angel! it will be much further away from school, but i expect some calmness at least. no fuckin notes on my door, no stalkerish dudes, no police throwing me out or rude guards. and also...no screaming kids outside from 7.30 am-6 pm every fuckin day.  yay! maybe now i can study a bit. ka-ching. 

Cambridge CAE is kinda hardcore. or well, the grammar is. the rest, not so mch. but still, damn grammar. i get the grammar automatically, i just don't know *why* it's supposed to be that way. apparently it's common amongst swedish students. 

on another note...some of the awe, cool and nice ppl i've met here: 

Marion, Eri, Ara, Svetlana, Karin, Susi Q, Marta, Dani, Alper, Angela...and more. :)

blah, blah, blah.

last year by this time i was barely alive. well, actually before that too. the past hates me and i hate it. i was an empty shell just walking around thinking i was on a never ending path to nowhere and everywhere. if i was thinking at all. i don't think i was a large amount of the time, really. i doubt it.

i've learned quite a lot without thinking i'm even half perfect or close to it. but at least i'm doing something now. i am. i might not be able to hack it since it is my hardest task in years (maybe ever), this. but even if i fail, i got in, i was good enough, i will always know that. don't know where that takes me, but it's better than a whole lot of bs nothingness.

fuck yeah!

A pity she does not exist, a shame he's not a fag
The only girl I ever loved was Andrew in drag
There is no hope of love for me, from here on I go stag
The only girl I'll ever love is Andrew in drag

Andrew in drag! (Andrew in drag)
Andrew in drag, yeah!

I don't know why I even went, it's really not my bag
Just thought it might be funny to see Andrew in drag
The moment he walked on the stage my tail began to wag
Wag like a little weiner dog for Andrew in drag

Andrew in drag! (Andrew in drag)
Andrew in drag, yeah!

I've always been a ladies man and I don't have to brag
But I've become a mama's boy for Andrew in drag
I'd sign away my trust fund, I would even sell the jag
If I could spend my misspent youth with Andrew in drag

Andrew in drag! (Andrew in drag)
Andrew in drag, yeah!

So stick him in a dress and he's the only boy I'd shag
The only boy I'd anything is Andrew in drag
I'll never see that girl again, he did it as a gag
I'll pine away forevermore for Andrew in drag